Impossible!

I had a rude awakening on the scale this morning. I know the numbers don't tell the whole story, and I am smart enough not to obsess (much) about them, but I was disturbed anyway.

I gained four pounds this week??? Impossible!!!!

Okay, I admit I didn't have the best of weeks. Last Friday's "Girls' Night" was a feast, and that led to leftovers, which I didn't want to waste! So every now and then, I had a slice of pizza in place of my usual Jenny meal. And I couldn't throw out that delectable ice cream pie Jen was so sweet to bring over, so I dug into that a little bit every day. But I worked out quite a bit and have been very active at my job. The bottom line is that I've done much worse while on this program and have not gained an ounce.

So what gives???

I'm not sure. Maybe the scale has issues. (Don't laugh -- that could be true!) The battery is pretty old, and I was getting "Error" messages when I first got on it. Perhaps the reading was simply off. Or maybe working out is building my muscle (which I can feel) to the point where it's affecting my overall weight. After all, muscle does weigh more than fat.

My co-workers were pretty empathetic when I recounted my annoyances this morning. One of them told me not to worry, and that how I feel is more important than what the scale says, which I believe is true. Still, it shook my psyche a little.

I'm at the point where I think I still need Jenny -- but, quite frankly, it's getting a bit expensive. Our ecomony sucks at the moment, and it's definitely affecting my wallet. I own a gas guzzler (which I was very, very grateful to receive) and end up putting about $60 in it every 10 days or so. I'm also flying home a lot more often for family and friends (which I don't regret one bit!), so that's getting a bit pricey, too. I'm struggling to decide if I should keep paying the price for the program or leave it and try to move forward on my own. Honestly, I don't think I can do this by myself right now. I think I need to reach my goal before I can cut all ties. My bank account, however, tells me otherwise.

What to do???