Almost halfway there

I was scared to weigh myself at the usual time on Saturday, June 14th. We were in the midst of celebrating my cousin's wedding, and I knew I'd eaten more than I'd anticipated (see June 16th entry below). So I skipped it... plus, I couldn't find a scale in the room.

Needless to say, I was pretty nervous when the time came again this past Saturday, wondering if I'd blown my progress. I knew I couldn't have gained back 19 lbs. in a weekend. But I wasn't sure if I could handle any negative fluxuation. I'm not normally big on numbers because I don't think they tell the whole story. Still, I was debating if I should wait another week, if only to maintain my self esteem.

Instead, I sucked it up and stepped on. And I wasn't disappointed. Three more pounds gone! Even though I'd eaten lots of gooey Indian food and hadn't stuck to my diet at all for a good three days, I managed to drop weight. Just to be sure, I weighed myself again... and again... and again. Much to my relief, the number didn't go up.

So... that means since joining Jenny on March 29th, I've lost 22 lbs. My goal is to lose about 50, knowing I'll probably gain some back when I get off the program. My mom thinks that's insane and that I'll look like Kate Moss, which is so far from the truth. I'm supposed to weigh about 155 - 165 for my height. Right now, I'm at 178. Thus, I think my goal is reasonable. Plus, I still have a big ol' tire around my waist and a lot of unwanted fat in my legs and arms. In my mind, I clearly have a ways to go.

I decided that once I get down to 160, I'm going to wean myself off of Jenny and try losing those last 10 lbs. on my own. I think I'm getting to the point where I can control my eating much better than I ever could before. I don't feel the need to snack all the time. I don't crave the fatty foods and sweet desserts I once believed I needed. I'm making as much of a mental transformation as a physical one, and I know I can keep it up... just have to keep moving!